My lips parted on a soft exhale, my body responding of its own accord, years of meticulous training to command myself proving insufficient.
We were standing too close to one another, yet it was not close enough. One step, and I could be in his arms. One step, and I would surrender to the pull that had been drawing me toward him since the day I arrived.
His hand lifted slightly, as though drawn by instinct rather than intention. He raised it toward my hand, his control slipping just enough to betray that whatever war raged inside me raged inside him as well.
I did not move away.
His fingers brushed against my knuckles—light, tentative.
My fingers shifted without thought, just enough to allow the contact.
A shiver traced down my spine, goosebumps rising in its wake.
His fingers lingered at my knuckles, sending sparks skittering across my skin, sharp enough to steal my breath.
His gaze held mine—questioning, searching, and I did not look away.
He swallowed. Hard.
“Oh! There you two are!” Alice said brightly, her voice cutting clean through the spell.
In the span of a blink, Aiden slipped seamlessly back into the disciplined knight. We looked away from one another and took a subtle step back. My fingers flexed slightly at my sides, as if my body had not yet accepted that he was no longer touching me.
Despite my quickening pulse, I managed to keep my voice even. “Sorry, Alice. I got a little carried away,” I said, gesturing to the pile of books on the table.
“I’m glad to see you enjoyed yourself,” she said, moving to inspect their titles. Her eyes flicked briefly toward me, as if she were gauging my mood, though she offered no comment.
“I’ll let you ladies be,” Aiden said, inclining his head as he moved toward the door. His hand paused on the latch before turning it fully. As he stepped through the doorway, I caught his glance back. Our eyes met for a brief, charged moment, and I drew in a quick sharp breath before the door shut.
“Are you alright, Monroe?” Alice asked, her brows knitting together.
“Yes,” I said, but my answer came too quick, too breathless. I cleared my throat before continuing. “Quite fine. I feel a little worn is all.”
I moved to the plush settee behind the table and picked up one of the books, my fingers drifting absently over the pages. Alice came to sit beside me, lightly closing the book in my lap.
I met her gaze, and something in her eyes told me that she saw more than I was willing to admit.
“Oh, dearest Monroe,” she said, her tone soft and sincere. “I know these past few days have been hard on you but remember that even the smallest act born of a fleeting emotion can carry consequences you do not intend. Let your mind be your guide, not your heart.”
I stared at her, words failing me. What could I say? To speak at all would be to admit something I knew I could not—not even to Alice.
She offered me a gentle smile, one that said she already knew. She squeezed my hand once and then left me alone with my thoughts.
Foolish Monroe.
I leaned my head against the back of the settee and closed my eyes.
We could have stepped back. He could have withdrawn his hand. I could have pulled mine away.
We did neither.
I waited for guilt to come. For my stomach to clench and my chest to tighten. But it didn’t. And that, somehow, unsettled me more.
What frightened me the most was not that it had happened. It was that I was no longer certain I would stop it next time.
Alice’s warning had come too late.
Whatever had sparked on the road to Bedford had begun to grow into something steadier. Stronger. And I could no longer pretend I did not feel it.