I wiped away the sweat trickling down my temple with the back of my hand and squinted up at the apartment building.
Bambi had said she’d rather never set foot in the building’s elevator, deeming it a giant death trap, but after my third run down to the dumpster this morning, I’d kill to have that giant death trap working.
Reaching into my back pocket, I pulled out my phone and glanced at the time. The junk removal company should be here soon to take care of the rest of the shit I couldn’t haul down three flights of stairs myself.
I drew in a deep breath, preparing myself for the trip back upstairs.
“I sure hope you’re enjoying yourself this morning, Bambi,” I muttered to myself as I climbed the last few steps.
Bambi had chosen to stay at the cottage today to play with her new art supplies, and I couldn’t say I blamed her. I’d much rather be literally anywhere else than here. But the apartment wasn’t gonna clean itself.
I pushed open the apartment door and looked at the pile in the living room, bigger now that most of the crap from my room had been cleared out. A few trash bags stuffed with my old clothes sat beside it, along with more useless shit that needed to go down to the dumpster.
I grabbed another trash bag from the kitchen counter and headed back to my room. All that was left to clean out was my desk and nightstand.
My desk was cluttered with engineering and industrial design textbooks and loose sheets of graph paper with half-finished designs. Old action figures sat toppled over on the top shelf, dust collecting in every crevice.
I gathered up the graph paper, old notebooks, and action figures and chucked them in the trash bag. Then I stacked the textbooks on the desk. They’d be taken to the library with the other books we’d set aside.
I opened the desk drawer and spotted a pack of sketching pencils. I pulled them out to give to Bambi before dumping the rest of the contents into the trash bag.
I moved to the nightstand next. The drawer was filled with classic car magazines and empty snack wrappers. All of it went into the trash.
Looking around the mostly bare room, I half-expected I’d feel some sort of sadness or grief, but all I felt… was nothing.
I turned and walked out, shutting off the light behind me.
My phone buzzed in my back pocket. I pulled it out and glanced at the unknown number flashing across the screen.
Figuring it might be the junk removal company, I answered.
“Hello?”
There was no response.
“Hello, Graham speaking,” I said after a few seconds.
The call dropped.
I slid my phone back into my pocket and set the garbage bag from my room down with the others in the living room.
There was a knock at the door.
“Clean Slate junk removal!”
Oh. Must’ve been them.
I answered the door and let the three men inside.
After giving them a quick tour of the apartment, pointing out which items needed to go, I left them to it and headed into Caroline’s room.
I shook out a new garbage bag, wishing I’d brought gloves so I didn’t have to touch her shit with my bare hands.
I grabbed the shoebox first, setting it on the dresser to get it out of the way. I tossed the dirty spoons next, not wanting the junk guys to have to see that shit. Her clothes and shoes went after that. I tied up the bag and set it by her bedroom door, then grabbed a new bag for everything left in her dresser and closet.
As I worked in Caroline’s room, I heard the front door opening and closing as the guys hauled out the furniture.
At least Caroline’s room would be easy. The only piece of furniture she had was the dresser.
Two and a half trash bags later, Caroline’s room was cleaned out.
I grabbed the shoebox and carried it into the living room, setting it on the kitchen island. Then I went back for the trash bags.
One of the men was coming back inside as I hauled the bags to the door.
“The last room’s good to go,” I told him as I passed him.
“Sounds good, man,” he said.
I tossed the bags from Caroline’s room into the dumpster, then came back up to grab the rest of the bags that had come from my room.
Once I’d finished, I returned to the apartment to go through the shoebox. If Caroline had put divorce papers inside, who knew what else might be in there.
I stood at the island, emptied its contents onto the counter and shuffled through the papers. A lot of it was old mail, most of which was inconsequential. There were bank statements, parking tickets, and collection notices. There were also several bills from two other rehab facilities. I remembered Bambi saying she’d tried to get Caroline into rehab before, but none of them stuck. These must’ve been the places she tried. I set the papers aside for the trash and sorted through the rest, finding nothing but more of the same. I was about to chuck the entire box into the garbage when something caught my eye.
Bambi’s name.
My pulse quickened, though I wasn’t sure why. Seeing her name on some old mail wasn’t out of the ordinary. She lived here too. But as I scanned the paper, I realized it wasn’t just an old piece of mail.
I didn’t understand most of the document, but a few words stuck out. Trust. Beneficiary. Age twenty-five.
What the fuck was I looking at?
I held the paper closer, as if that would suddenly turn all the legal jargon into average fucking people wording. Sur-fucking-prise. It didn’t. But after a second read-through, I understood what it was saying well enough.
When Bambi turned twenty-five, she would gain access to whatever her father had left for her in the trust.
Her twenty-fifth birthday was three months away.
Did Bambi know?
I took my phone from my pocket, pulled up Bambi’s contact, and called her.
I carried the document down to my truck and waited for Bambi to answer.
“Hey,” she said, her voice sweet and bright. “You miss me?”
“’Course I did, but that’s not actually why I’m calling.”
“Oh? Everything going okay with the junk removal?”
“Yeah, that’s all going fine. They should be finished soon.”
“That’s great. So, what’s up?”
“Did your dad ever talk to you about what would happen after he passed?”
Bambi went quiet. “No, why?”
“You remember the box we found with the divorce papers?”
“Yeah…”
“I found something else inside. Some sort of paperwork naming you as the beneficiary of a trust he’d set up.”
“What? What trust?”
“I don’t know. But I have a paper in my hands right now that says you get access to it when you turn twenty-five.”
The line went silent. I pulled my phone away from my ear, thinking our call had cut out, but her name was still on my screen.
“Bambi?”
“I’m here. Sorry. I just wasn’t expecting this.”
“So, your dad didn’t say anything to you at all?”
“No. Nothing. Was there anything else in the box?”
“I’m not sure,” I said, laying the paper in my passenger seat. “Most of the crap was just crap. I’ll bring everything back home with me and we can look through the rest together.”
“Yeah, alright.”
“You okay?” I asked.
“Yeah. No, I’m good. I’ll see you when you get home.”
“Okay. Hey?”
“Yeah?”
“I love you. We’ll figure this out.”
“I know. And I love you, too.”
The call disconnected.
I dropped my head back against the headrest.
I wasn’t certain what this all meant, but my gut was telling me that something about it was off. It wasn’t as if Bambi’s dad had died suddenly or unexpectedly. He’d been sick for months. More than enough time for him to make sure his daughter was taken care of. So why hadn’t he told her about it? And why the fuck hadn’t Caroline?
The junk truck’s rear door slammed shut behind me. I glanced in the rearview mirror and saw one of the men waving me down.
I hopped out of my truck and headed over to him.
“We’re all finished here,” he said.
“Great.” I extended my hand toward him. “Thanks for your help, man.”
“Of course,” he said, shaking my hand.
He whistled to one of his guys standing by the truck, who came jogging over with a clipboard.
“Just sign and date here for me,” he said, handing the clipboard to me.
I signed where he pointed and gave the clipboard back. He tore off the pink copy and handed it to me.
“That’s your copy there. You have a great rest of your day.”
“Thanks, you too.”
The man nodded and he and his partner headed to their truck.
I returned to the apartment and did a final sweep of the place to make sure that everything that needed to go was gone.
I stood in the middle of the living room and looked around one last time. Again, I expected to feel sadness or grief, but all there was was relief. That neither Bambi nor I would have to endure this place ever again.
I collected all the papers and mail I’d emptied from the shoebox and stuffed them back inside.
I sent Bambi a quick text to let her know I was about to head home. Then I left the apartment and locked the door behind me.
Later that night, Bambi and I sat in front of the fire in the living room, the shoebox between us.
“Are you sure you want to go through this right now?” I asked her.
“I’m sure,” she said, dumping the papers onto the floor. “I want to know what else Caroline is hiding from me.”
Some of the old mail went into the fire. Everything worth keeping, including the divorce papers and the trust document, went into a pile beside us.
There were only two other legal documents. One was her father’s death certificate, and the other was a life insurance policy naming Caroline as the beneficiary.
“Whoa,” Bambi said, her eyes going wide when she saw the amount of money on the policy. “Do you ever remember Caroline having this kind of money?”
“No,” I told her. “At least I don’t think so. I don’t remember anything changing that significantly after your dad died.”
“Do you think she collected it?”
“I don’t know,” I said. “It’s possible.”
“And what about the trust?” She set the paper down and picked up the trust document. “Why wouldn’t she say anything about this?”
“I don’t know, Bambi. Caroline was hardly ever sober. Maybe she just forgot about it.”
“You really believe that?”
I thought about it for a second. “No. Not really.”
“It just doesn’t make any sense. None of this does.” She put the paper down with the others. “Why haven’t I been contacted about the trust? My father died seven years ago, Graham.”
“Well, you’re not twenty-five yet. Someone might reach out to you then, like what happened with me after my dad died.”
“Or Caroline intervened somehow,” Bambi said.
“Maybe. I wouldn’t put it past her, honestly.”
“Ugh,” she groaned. “I don’t know.”
Bambi flopped onto her back on the floor.
“Look,” I said, crawling over to her and angling myself over her. “We don’t have to figure it all out tonight, Bambi. Let’s call it for now, yeah?”
“I guess.”
“Good.” I leaned down and kissed the tip of her nose. Her cheek. Then the other side. I pressed my lips to hers.
“Are you trying to distract me?” She asked when I pulled back.
“Maybe. Is it working?”
“Maybe,” she shot back, a smile pulling at her lips. “I think you need to do it again. Just to be sure.”
I slipped one arm beneath her knees and the other behind her back and lifted her from the floor.
“What are you doing?” she asked, giggling as she wrapped her arms around my neck.
“Taking you to bed.”
Bambi’s brow lifted, her smile turning suggestive.
“Not like that, you horn-dog,” I said, shaking my head.
“Aw,” she whined. “No fun.”
I laughed and carried her to the bedroom.
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