G+B Chapter 20: Calm Before the Storm — Graham

I leaned against the wall at the end of the hall, my arms crossed over my chest, watching Bambi in the kitchen. She was bumbling her way around like it was her first time ever inside a kitchen. I’d never seen someone look both scared and determined while making muffins. But she sure as shit looked good doing it.

She was in one of my t-shirts, the hem barely covering the pink lace panties beneath. Her hair was thrown up in a messy bun, flour dusting the loose strands around her face.

Bambi turned to grab something from the fridge, and I had to squeeze my eyes shut and press my lips together to keep from laughing. Her brows were scrunched, and she had batter smeared across her cheek. She looked like she’d gone to battle against muffins and was losing spectacularly.

When she turned back toward the counter, I moved into the kitchen and stepped up behind her. She was so absorbed in reading the recipe on her phone that she didn’t notice me.

I leaned down and whispered into her ear. “Morning.”

Bambi shrieked and whirled around, holding her spatula up in defense.

“Shit, Graham!”

I couldn’t help but laugh this time.

“That’s not funny,” she said nudging my chest.

“It kind of is.” I wiped the batter from her cheek and licked it off my thumb.

“It is not. I’m struggling here, Graham.”

“So, I noticed.” I glanced at the mess she’d made. “You really are helpless around a kitchen, aren’t you?”

“Yes.” Bambi half laughed. “I am stressed, Graham.”

“They’re just muffins, Bambi.”

I took the spatula from her hands and dropped it into the batter bowl. I slid my arms around her waist and pulled her against my chest. “What if I told you that you looked damn good right now?”

She huffed a laugh and rolled her eyes.

“I mean it.” I lifted her onto the counter and a cloud of flour puffed from beneath her.

“Don’t tease,” she said, wrinkling her nose at me.

“I would never.”

She dipped her finger in the batter and wiped it on the tip of my nose. “Liar.”

I held her gaze as I slid my hands from her waist down her thighs. I stepped between her legs, dropped my head, and nipped at her bottom lip.

 “Never,” I said, my voice low.

Bambi’s breath faltered, her gaze going dark.

I gripped the hem of her shirt and pulled it over her head, her dusty pink nipples hardening like they were begging for my attention.

I reached behind her and pulled the tie from her bun. Her hair tumbled over her shoulders, the dark waves framing her full breasts.

I cupped her breast, gently rubbing her nipple between my fingers as I captured the other between my lips. I flicked my tongue over the hard bud and she let out a breathy moan.

The batter on my nose smeared across her chest as I alternated between her breasts, the sweetness blooming across my tongue.

I dropped to my knees, dragged her panties down, and spread her legs wider.

“Fuck, Bambi.”

Her pussy was glistening with her arousal, and my mouth watered at the sight. It took every bit of restraint I had not to devour her right fucking there.

I kept my eyes on her as I slowly kissed up her inner thigh. With each kiss, Bambi’s breath became more ragged. I dragged my tongue through her wetness and she shuddered, sucking in a sharp breath.

“So fucking sweet, baby,” I said, my lips barely leaving her.

“Graham,” she moaned.

“Hmm?” 

“Don’t you… have… to leave?”

“I do.” I kissed the crease of her thigh. “But work can wait.” I kissed the other side.

“But Dane…”

I gave Bambi a serious look. “It’s not polite to say another man’s name while I’m kneeling between your legs, Bambi.”

She whimpered, and the sound shot straight to my cock.

“You’re going… to be late.”

I held her gaze. “You’re worth it.”

I ran my tongue through her folds again, and her head fell back against the cupboard.

With each pass of my tongue over her clit, her fingers curled tighter in my hair and her heels dug deeper into my back. She shifted her hips in time with my strokes, ensuring I hit just the right spot.

“Don’t—Don’t stop. Right there.”

Her breath caught and her thighs clamped tight around my head as she came.

When Bambi’s body went slack and her legs fell from my shoulders, I got to my feet.

Her eyes were glassy, her chest and neck flushed.

I leaned in and kissed her, and she moaned against my mouth. When I pulled back, her lips were wet, coated in her own arousal. She swiped her tongue across her them, tasting herself, and my cock twitched in my jeans.

Fuck.

I braced my palms on the counter, caging her in, and kissed her again. Rougher. Harder.

Her hands slid up my chest, and she wound her arms around my neck.

“Fuck it,” I said between kisses. “I’m canceling.”

I felt Bambi’s smile against my lips.

“As much as I would love that, you know you can’t do that.”

I grumbled. “There you go, being responsible again.”

“Someone clearly has to.”

 I glanced down at the hard bulge in my jeans. “I’m gonna need a minute.”

“I can help with that,” she said, palming my dick.

Bambi slid off the counter and knelt in front of me. She undid the button on my jeans and slid them and my boxers midway down my thighs. My cock sprang free and she dragged her tongue along the length of my shaft.

“God. Fuck.”

She swirled her tongue around my head, licking the pre-cum leaking from the tip.

“Shit, Bambi. You can’t tell me I can’t stay and then do that.”

She took all of me in her mouth until my head hit the back of her throat, making my knees fucking buckle as a jolt of pleasure racked through me. I braced my hands on her shoulder to keep myself steady.

Bambi looked up at me, smiling around my cock before taking all of me in again.

Her fingers dug into the backs of my thighs as she increased her pace, and lewd, wet sounds filled the kitchen.

A low, strangled groan rumbled in my chest. I wasn’t going to last much longer.

My toes curled in my boots and my balls drew up tight.

“I’m close, baby.”

Bambi wrapped her hand around the base of my shaft, stroking me in rhythm with her mouth.

My cock jerked, and with a grunt, I spilled myself inside of her mouth.

She swallowed every drop before releasing me with a wet pop.

“That was…” I shook my head, words lost to me, and Bambi laughed.

I helped her to her feet, then tucked myself back into my boxers and jeans.

She readjusted my shirt, smoothing out the wrinkles, and combed her fingers through my hair. “There,” she said. “Dane will never know a thing. Now, get outta here so I can continue my war with these freaking muffins.”

“Kicking me out after having your way with me? You’re a cruel woman, Bambi.”

“Hey, you started it.”

I took her by the waist and pulled her against me. “Yeah, and I’d do it again.”

“Graham,” she giggled.

“Alright, alright.” I pressed a firm kiss to her lips. “I’m going.”

I moved toward the door and grabbed my keys off the hook. Before stepping outside, I glanced back at Bambi.

I’d barely been gone twenty minutes, and I was already missing Bambi.

Fuck it.

I reached for my phone in the dash mount, pulled up FaceTime, and dialed Bambi.

She answered on the third ring, her flour and batter-streaked face filling my screen.

“It’s been twenty minutes, Graham,” she said.

“So? You can’t blame me for missing my girl. Twenty whole minutes without you, Bambi, is too many.”

“You are incorrigible, Graham Woods.”

“Maybe,” I said, shooting a quick smile at my phone. “I spent four years without you before, Bambi. I’m not going to apologize for wanting to make the most of every moment I have with you now.”

“Is that what this morning was? Making up for lost time or something?”

I grinned. “That was just because you looked hot.”

Bambi rolled her eyes, but I caught the faint smile on her lips before she angled her phone away.

“So how are the muffins coming along?” I asked.

“I really should just stick with painting. Baking is not for the weak.”

I chuckled. Bambi’s skills in the kitchen only went as far as making PB&J’s. No wonder she thought baking was so damn difficult.

Just as I went to speak, I heard the doorbell ring in the background.

I arched a brow. “Expecting someone?”

“My new canvases!” she squealed. “I told you yesterday, remember?”

The phone shook, her face blurring as she hurried to the door.

I smiled to myself. It was so fucking cute how excited she got over her art supplies.

“I cannot freaking wait to use them. You have no—Caroline?”

Caroline? My fucking mother?

My eyes snapped to my phone, but all I could see were Bambi’s bare feet.

My fingers tightened around the steering wheel. Shes been missing for two fucking weeks and she shows up now? How the fuck did she even find the cottage?

“Bambi? Bambi, what’s going on?”

Bambi didn’t answer, but I could hear their muffled voices through the truck speakers.

I cranked up the volume as high as it would go but I still couldn’t make out a damn word.

I slammed my palm against steering wheel. “Shit!”

After a quick check of the oncoming lane, I hit the brakes and whipped a U-turn, the truck swinging onto the shoulder. Gravel kicked up from my tires as I pulled back onto the road.

My eyes kept flicking to the phone whenever I caught moment, but all I could see were glimpses of the cottage floor and the edges of furniture.

Then, clear as fuck, a short, clipped yelp.

My stomach fucking dropped.

I pushed the gas pedal damn near to the floorboard, and the engine roared.

The camera shifted, and Caroline’s blurred face came into view.

It was only a glimpse but I could tell she was fucked up.

My jaw clenched so tight it fucking hurt.

God dammit. I almost fucking stayed. I should have fucking stayed.

Chapter Twenty-One

G+B Chapter 19: The Painting

I nibbled on the end of my paintbrush and tilted my head to the side, concentrating on the canvas in front of me. The painting of the cottage was starting to come together, but there was still something missing. I tilted my head to the other side, my brows scrunching together. 

Was the perspective I’d sketched wrong? Was it the color that was off? I bit down harder on the end of my paintbrush. Should I scrap the canvas and start over? 

No, I’d gone through two canvases already trying to make it perfect, and this was my last one. I could make it work. I would make it work.

I swirled my brush through the brown paint on my plate, then dabbed it in the white and mixed the two colors together to create a lighter shade. I brushed the color onto the canvas, filling in the outline of the cottage.

I took a step back. “Ugh. Fuck,” I groaned.

I grabbed my phone from beside me and pulled up Amazon to order another set of canvases.

“Why are you looking at your phone like it’s offended you?” Graham said from behind me.

“It’s not the phone.” I hit submit on the order. “It’s the damn canvas.” 

“Why? What did it do this time?” Graham stepped up behind me, snaking his arms around my waist and pulling me flush against him.

I dropped my head back on his chest.

“I don’t know.” I blew out a frustrated breath. “It might just be me. I suck.”

Graham rested his chin on the top of my head and tightened his arms around me. “You do not suck, Bambi.” 

“Tell that to the last two canvases I threw away,” I mumbled.

“This is your first time using a canvas and paints like these. No one expects you to be perfect at it on the first try.”

“It’s just… I can see exactly how I want the painting to look in my head, but when I try to put it on the canvas it doesn’t look anything like I imagined.” I grimaced. “I hate it.”

“Well, we can get you some new canvases. Or you could try using a new… whatever they’re called.” 

“I think you mean medium.”

“Yes. That.”

I turned in his arms to face him and bit my lower lip.

“You already ordered new canvases, didn’t you?”

“They arrive tomorrow.”

Graham chuckled. “I should have known.”

“Sorry. I know you said you didn’t mind me using your card for whatever I needed, but I doubt an endless shipment of art supplies was what you meant.” 

“Don’t be sorry, Bambi. I’d fund an entire art studio if it’s what would make you happy.”

“Oh. Well, in that case… if you insist.” 

“Okay, smart-ass.” Graham smiled and shook his head.

“Alright, enough about my failed attempt at becoming an artist,” I said, winding my arms around his neck. “How are your blueprints for Green Cay coming along? You’re heading up there again tomorrow, right?”

“Yeah, they’re good. Almost finished. I think they’ll be really happy with the mock-ups I drafted.” He glanced toward the house. “You sure you’ll be okay here on your own? Dane and Kylee wouldn’t mind if you wanted to tag along. Dane, especially.”

“I bet.” I laughed. “And I’m sure. I’ll be plenty occupied here, trust me.” 

I leaned in and kissed him. “Thank you for thinking of me, though.” 

“Anytime.”

I slid my arms from his neck and turned toward the canvas, Graham’s hands never leaving my waist. 

“Don’t throw this one away. The canvas. Keep working on it. Don’t try to make it perfect… just see where it takes you.”

I chewed on the inside of my cheek. 

“What about the painting is bothering you?” Graham asked.

I shrugged. “I don’t know.”

“You’ve been working on it out here for the last few days. Why don’t you take a step away from it for a bit?”

“Yeah, maybe. I just feel like… this was supposed to be the one thing I could control, you know. I love art. I’m good at art. When everything else goes to shit, this is supposed to be something I can rely on. I just—I just don’t understand why I can’t make it fucking work.”

“Bambi…” Graham turned me back to him. “What’s really going on? Talk to me.” 

“Everything. The whole trust situation and the bullshit with Randall. And now Caroline is fucking missing. It’s just a lot, okay. It’s a lot and I don’t know how to process it all. And now this stupid fucking painting doesn’t want to work either.” 

“Hey. Hey, it’s okay, Bambi.” 

“Is it? Because it doesn’t feel okay. I don’t feel okay. I thought that I was fine, you know? That we’d figure out what’s going on with the trust. But then Randall, and now Caroline’s gone. I just feel…”

“Not fine?” Graham finished. 

My shoulders sagged and I dropped my forehead to his chest. 

“Yeah.”

He breathed out a soft laugh. “And here I was thinking you were the more composed of the two of us this whole time.”

“I tried to be.”

“You didn’t have to. You know that, right? Do you remember what I told you your first night here?”

I shook my head.

“I told you that you were safe here, and I meant it. Bambi, you’re safe to be yourself, in whatever way that means. Happy, sad, angry. Or if what you’re feeling is fucking messy and complicated, you can be that too.”

He lifted my chin and held my gaze. “You don’t have to pretend. Not for me.”

“Thanks,” I said, “for reminding me.” 

His hand dropped from my chin and settled back on my waist. I wound my arms around him and hugged him tightly.

“Ugh. How did we get here?”

“Kidnapping, if I remember your accusation correctly.”

I chuckled against his chest. “Now who’s the smartass?”

His arms tightened around me. I relaxed against him and closed my eyes, listening to the steady beat of his heart.

“I know how badly you want to figure this shit out, and I promise you we will. Okay?”

“Okay.”

“And next time, don’t feel like you have to keep all this shit to yourself. You can come to me with anything, Bambi.”

“I won’t. And I will. Promise.” I rose onto my toes and softly pressed my lips to his. “I love you. Thank you. I needed this.”

“I love you, too.” Graham gave my butt a light smack. “Now, paint that fucking cottage like I know you can.” 

“Sir, yes, sir.” 

Graham arched a brow. “Oh, I think I like hearing you call me sir.”

He dipped his head, burying his face against my neck as he peppered it with kisses.

“Okay, okay.” I giggled, bracing my palms on his chest. “Don’t you have work to finish?”

Graham sighed. “Unfortunately.”

He dropped a quick kiss to my lips, then backed toward the door. “Damn you for being so responsible.”

“Just doing my duty,” I said, picking up my paintbrush again. 

Graham stopped just inside the door and looked back at me. 

“Go on. Shoo shoo.” I waved my hand at him. “Sir.”

One corner of his mouth quirked up and he shook his head.

“Rude,” he said as he closed the door behind him.

I turned back to my painting and chuckled to myself. 

Sometime later, the back door creaked, and a cup of coffee appeared on the table beside me. By the time I looked up again, my empty cup had been replaced with a snack plate of grapes, cheese cubes, and dried salami. He returned sometime after that, pressed a kiss to my temple, and took the empty plate inside. 

The next time the back door creaked open, I was taking a step back from the finished canvas. 

Graham came to stand beside me and slipped an arm around my waist. “You did good, Bambi.”

I rested my head against his shoulder and smiled. “Yeah, I did, didn’t I?”

Chapter Twenty →

G+B Chapter 17: Secrets Revealed — Graham

I wiped away the sweat trickling down my temple with the back of my hand and squinted up at the apartment building.

Bambi had said she’d rather never set foot in the building’s elevator, deeming it a giant death trap, but after my third run down to the dumpster this morning, I’d kill to have that giant death trap working.

Reaching into my back pocket, I pulled out my phone and glanced at the time. The junk removal company should be here soon to take care of the rest of the shit I couldn’t haul down three flights of stairs myself.

I drew in a deep breath, preparing myself for the trip back upstairs.

“I sure hope you’re enjoying yourself this morning, Bambi,” I muttered to myself as I climbed the last few steps.

Bambi had chosen to stay at the cottage today to play with her new art supplies, and I couldn’t say I blamed her. I’d much rather be literally anywhere else than here. But the apartment wasn’t gonna clean itself.

I pushed open the apartment door and looked at the pile in the living room, bigger now that most of the crap from my room had been cleared out. A few trash bags stuffed with my old clothes sat beside it, along with more useless shit that needed to go down to the dumpster.

I grabbed another trash bag from the kitchen counter and headed back to my room. All that was left to clean out was my desk and nightstand.

My desk was cluttered with engineering and industrial design textbooks and loose sheets of graph paper with half-finished designs. Old action figures sat toppled over on the top shelf, dust collecting in every crevice.

I gathered up the graph paper, old notebooks, and action figures and chucked them in the trash bag. Then I stacked the textbooks on the desk. They’d be taken to the library with the other books we’d set aside.

I opened the desk drawer and spotted a pack of sketching pencils. I pulled them out to give to Bambi before dumping the rest of the contents into the trash bag.

I moved to the nightstand next. The drawer was filled with classic car magazines and empty snack wrappers. All of it went into the trash.

Looking around the mostly bare room, I half-expected I’d feel some sort of sadness or grief, but all I felt… was nothing.

I turned and walked out, shutting off the light behind me.

My phone buzzed in my back pocket. I pulled it out and glanced at the unknown number flashing across the screen.

Figuring it might be the junk removal company, I answered.

“Hello?”

There was no response.

“Hello, Graham speaking,” I said after a few seconds.

The call dropped.

I slid my phone back into my pocket and set the garbage bag from my room down with the others in the living room.

There was a knock at the door.

“Clean Slate junk removal!”

Oh. Must’ve been them.

I answered the door and let the three men inside.

After giving them a quick tour of the apartment, pointing out which items needed to go, I left them to it and headed into Caroline’s room.

I shook out a new garbage bag, wishing I’d brought gloves so I didn’t have to touch her shit with my bare hands.

I grabbed the shoebox first, setting it on the dresser to get it out of the way. I tossed the dirty spoons next, not wanting the junk guys to have to see that shit. Her clothes and shoes went after that. I tied up the bag and set it by her bedroom door, then grabbed a new bag for everything left in her dresser and closet.

As I worked in Caroline’s room, I heard the front door opening and closing as the guys hauled out the furniture.

At least Caroline’s room would be easy. The only piece of furniture she had was the dresser.

Two and a half trash bags later, Caroline’s room was cleaned out.

I grabbed the shoebox and carried it into the living room, setting it on the kitchen island. Then I went back for the trash bags.

One of the men was coming back inside as I hauled the bags to the door.

“The last room’s good to go,” I told him as I passed him.

“Sounds good, man,” he said.

I tossed the bags from Caroline’s room into the dumpster, then came back up to grab the rest of the bags that had come from my room.

Once I’d finished, I returned to the apartment to go through the shoebox. If Caroline had put divorce papers inside, who knew what else might be in there.

I stood at the island, emptied its contents onto the counter and shuffled through the papers. A lot of it was old mail, most of which was inconsequential. There were bank statements, parking tickets, and collection notices. There were also several bills from two other rehab facilities. I remembered Bambi saying she’d tried to get Caroline into rehab before, but none of them stuck. These must’ve been the places she tried. I set the papers aside for the trash and sorted through the rest, finding nothing but more of the same. I was about to chuck the entire box into the garbage when something caught my eye.

Bambi’s name.

My pulse quickened, though I wasn’t sure why. Seeing her name on some old mail wasn’t out of the ordinary. She lived here too. But as I scanned the paper, I realized it wasn’t just an old piece of mail.

I didn’t understand most of the document, but a few words stuck out. Trust. Beneficiary. Age twenty-five.

What the fuck was I looking at?

I held the paper closer, as if that would suddenly turn all the legal jargon into average fucking people wording. Sur-fucking-prise. It didn’t. But after a second read-through, I understood what it was saying well enough.

When Bambi turned twenty-five, she would gain access to whatever her father had left for her in the trust.

Her twenty-fifth birthday was three months away.

Did Bambi know?

I took my phone from my pocket, pulled up Bambi’s contact, and called her.

I carried the document down to my truck and waited for Bambi to answer.

“Hey,” she said, her voice sweet and bright. “You miss me?”

“’Course I did, but that’s not actually why I’m calling.”

“Oh? Everything going okay with the junk removal?”

“Yeah, that’s all going fine. They should be finished soon.”

“That’s great. So, what’s up?”

“Did your dad ever talk to you about what would happen after he passed?”

Bambi went quiet. “No, why?”

“You remember the box we found with the divorce papers?”

“Yeah…”

“I found something else inside. Some sort of paperwork naming you as the beneficiary of a trust he’d set up.”

“What? What trust?”

“I don’t know. But I have a paper in my hands right now that says you get access to it when you turn twenty-five.”

The line went silent. I pulled my phone away from my ear, thinking our call had cut out, but her name was still on my screen.

“Bambi?”

“I’m here. Sorry. I just wasn’t expecting this.”

“So, your dad didn’t say anything to you at all?”

“No. Nothing. Was there anything else in the box?”

“I’m not sure,” I said, laying the paper in my passenger seat. “Most of the crap was just crap. I’ll bring everything back home with me and we can look through the rest together.”

“Yeah, alright.”

“You okay?” I asked.

“Yeah. No, I’m good. I’ll see you when you get home.”

“Okay. Hey?”

“Yeah?”

“I love you. We’ll figure this out.”

“I know. And I love you, too.”

The call disconnected.

I dropped my head back against the headrest.

I wasn’t certain what this all meant, but my gut was telling me that something about it was off. It wasn’t as if Bambi’s dad had died suddenly or unexpectedly. He’d been sick for months. More than enough time for him to make sure his daughter was taken care of. So why hadn’t he told her about it? And why the fuck hadn’t Caroline?

The junk truck’s rear door slammed shut behind me. I glanced in the rearview mirror and saw one of the men waving me down.

I hopped out of my truck and headed over to him.

“We’re all finished here,” he said.

“Great.” I extended my hand toward him. “Thanks for your help, man.”

“Of course,” he said, shaking my hand.

He whistled to one of his guys standing by the truck, who came jogging over with a clipboard.

“Just sign and date here for me,” he said, handing the clipboard to me.

I signed where he pointed and gave the clipboard back. He tore off the pink copy and handed it to me.

“That’s your copy there. You have a great rest of your day.”

“Thanks, you too.”

The man nodded and he and his partner headed to their truck.

I returned to the apartment and did a final sweep of the place to make sure that everything that needed to go was gone.

I stood in the middle of the living room and looked around one last time. Again, I expected to feel sadness or grief, but all there was was relief. That neither Bambi nor I would have to endure this place ever again.

I collected all the papers and mail I’d emptied from the shoebox and stuffed them back inside.

I sent Bambi a quick text to let her know I was about to head home. Then I left the apartment and locked the door behind me.

Later that night, Bambi and I sat in front of the fire in the living room, the shoebox between us.

“Are you sure you want to go through this right now?” I asked her.

“I’m sure,” she said, dumping the papers onto the floor. “I want to know what else Caroline is hiding from me.”

Some of the old mail went into the fire. Everything worth keeping, including the divorce papers and the trust document, went into a pile beside us.

There were only two other legal documents. One was her father’s death certificate, and the other was a life insurance policy naming Caroline as the beneficiary.

“Whoa,” Bambi said, her eyes going wide when she saw the amount of money on the policy. “Do you ever remember Caroline having this kind of money?”

“No,” I told her. “At least I don’t think so. I don’t remember anything changing that significantly after your dad died.”

“Do you think she collected it?”

“I don’t know,” I said. “It’s possible.”

“And what about the trust?” She set the paper down and picked up the trust document. “Why wouldn’t she say anything about this?”

“I don’t know, Bambi. Caroline was hardly ever sober. Maybe she just forgot about it.”

“You really believe that?”

I thought about it for a second. “No. Not really.”

“It just doesn’t make any sense. None of this does.” She put the paper down with the others. “Why haven’t I been contacted about the trust? My father died seven years ago, Graham.”

“Well, you’re not twenty-five yet. Someone might reach out to you then, like what happened with me after my dad died.”

“Or Caroline intervened somehow,” Bambi said.

“Maybe. I wouldn’t put it past her, honestly.”

“Ugh,” she groaned. “I don’t know.”

Bambi flopped onto her back on the floor.

“Look,” I said, crawling over to her and angling myself over her. “We don’t have to figure it all out tonight, Bambi. Let’s call it for now, yeah?”

“I guess.”

“Good.” I leaned down and kissed the tip of her nose. Her cheek. Then the other side. I pressed my lips to hers.

“Are you trying to distract me?” She asked when I pulled back.

“Maybe. Is it working?”

“Maybe,” she shot back, a smile pulling at her lips. “I think you need to do it again. Just to be sure.”

I slipped one arm beneath her knees and the other behind her back and lifted her from the floor.

“What are you doing?” she asked, giggling as she wrapped her arms around my neck.

“Taking you to bed.”

Bambi’s brow lifted, her smile turning suggestive.

“Not like that, you horn-dog,” I said, shaking my head.

“Aw,” she whined. “No fun.”

I laughed and carried her to the bedroom.

Chapter Eighteen →

G+B Chapter 12: A Piece of the Past — Graham

And I had to admit that it felt good being able to get a rise out of her. Not because I wanted to torture her, but because, for the first time since she’d arrived, I didn’t feel like I had to hold myself back. 

I’d done enough of that already thanks to Caroline. 

Ah, shit. I was so fucking done for, wasn’t I?

My brows pulled together as I picked up the bottle again, squinting at the label. 

It was the same shampoo I’d been using for the last four years. Why did it all of a sudden—

Bambi. 

I shook my head and chuckled again.

Yeah, pal. So fucking done.

“Graham speaking. Wait, what?”

“Sorry,” I mouthed to her and headed into my office, leaving the door ajar behind me.

“Exactly that, sir. I’m afraid I can’t say more over the phone. It’s best that you come down immediately.”

My fingers tightened around my phone. “I’m not sure that my presence will have the effect that you’re hoping for. I’m sure it’ll only serve to make matters worse.”

“I’m sorry, sir, but your mother is insisting she see you.”

“She can insist all she likes, but I’m sorry, I’m going to have to decline.”

“But sir!”

The advisor continued speaking, but I barely registered a word he was saying. Bambi’s voice was already looping through my head.

She had no idea what she was asking. 

And how could she? Caroline was the one topic I avoided speaking with her about. How was I supposed to tell her that the one person in her life who hadn’t abandoned her was the reason I’d walked away from Bambi in the first place?Caroline may have been a shit parent to Bambi, but she never treated her the way she treated me. Despite everything she had gone through because of Caroline, there was no denying that Bambi still cared for her. I couldn’t bring myself to ruin that.

Bambi entered the office and stopped in front of me. “I can go with you if you’d like.”

“No,” I said too curtly, making Bambi flinch. 

“Alright.” She reached out and took my hand. “I’m here if you need me.”

Bambi gave my hand a squeeze, then left the office.

Fuck. Was I really about to do this? I hadn’t seen Caroline since that night in the alley. I’d gotten her admitted, gone down to the clinic to finish the paperwork, but not once had I seen her. 

I followed him down the hall, the echo of our footsteps bouncing off the walls. There were no windows, no photos, no corny inspirational posters. Just stark white walls and a hallway that seemed endless. 

Tim stopped in front of a large metal door with a single narrow window and punched in a keycode. The lock released with a mechanical whirr. 

“Thanks,” I said, stepping past him. 

She smiled the moment she saw me. I couldn’t help but notice that it lacked any sort of maternal warmth one would expect from a mother who hadn’t seen her son in over four years. 

To anyone else, it would have seemed perfectly normal. I recognized it for what it was. A mask. 

I didn’t return it as I crossed the room. I took the chair opposite her and folded my hands in front of me, mirroring her posture.

“Caroline.”

“I see we’re done with the false pretenses, then,” I replied. Figures she couldn’t keep up the act for more than a minute.

“Why am I here, Caroline?”

“Is that really any way to speak to your mother?”

“You’re not my mother. Haven’t been for years. Now I’ll ask you again, why am I here?”

Caroline sat a little straighter, one corner of her thin lips twitching upward.

“Where is she, Graham? You have her, don’t you?”

She. Her.

She spoke of Bambi as if she were nothing more than a possession. Like she had no value beyond being a pawn she could use against me. 

“Is this why you’ve asked me here? Why you’ve been causing problems for the staff? Why you’ve refused treatment? To talk about Bambi?”

“I knew you wouldn’t have shown up otherwise.”

“You’re right. I wouldn’t have. We have nothing to say to each other. We both know that.”

“Does she know where you’ve stuck me, hmm? Does she know that you’ve had your own mother committed?”

“Bambi’s safe. And yes, she knows.” 

“Safe?” Caroline scoffed. “She was safe with me.” She leaned across the table, her tone sharpening as she continued. “You did this on purpose, didn’t you? You put me in here just so you could have her all to yourself.”

“Don’t think I don’t know what you’ve done, Graham. I know you took possession of the apartment. I know that you’ve got Hazel.”

“Bambi,” I corrected. 

“You’ll ruin her,” she said, her nose wrinkling. “I saw how you looked at her when you two were kids, how she followed you around like a little puppy dog, hung on your every word. You never discouraged it. You liked it, didn’t you?”

“Enough, Caroline.”

The corner of her mouth twitched again, satisfaction flickering in her eyes.

“I know you did,” she sneered. “She was an innocent little girl and you took advantage—”

“Enough!” I slammed my hands down on the table and stood, the chair toppling to the floor. 

I leaned across the table, both hands planted firmly on the tabletop. “You have no idea what you’re talking about. If you only brought me here so you could spew your bullshit, then I’m leaving.”

Caroline’s laughter echoed behind me as I left the visitation room. It stayed with me all the way back to my truck.

I slammed the door shut and dropped my head to the steering wheel.

Coming to see her was a mistake. I should have known better than to expect she’d do anything but attack me. 

That vicious fucking bitch.

My hands trembled with anger as I pulled into the driveway and killed the engine.

This was what she wanted. To get under my skin. To corrupt the innocent moments of our childhood. 

The moment our eyes met, the anger that had followed me home loosened its grip. 

I got out of the truck and headed toward her. 

“How’d it go?” she asked.

I walked up the porch steps, pulled her against my chest, and locked my arms around her. 

“I don’t wanna talk about it,” I said, resting my cheek on top of her head. “Not yet.”

Bambi’s arms closed around me, holding me tightly. “Whenever you’re ready.”

The clinic, the conversation with Caroline—if you could call it that—all faded into the background. In Bambi’s arms, all I felt was peace.

Bambi’s arms loosened and she looked up at me. “What do you need? How can I help?”

“Nothing,” I said, reaching up to brush a few loose strands of hair back from her face. “You’ve already done enough just by being here, Bambi.” 

“Let’s go in,” she said. She slipped her hand into mine and led me inside. 

“Thank you,” I said after breaking the kiss.

Bambi smiled up at me, her thumb tracing the curve of my bottom lip. “I’m beginning to like the way you thank me.”

She rose onto her toes and pressed her lips to mine again. 

And just like that, everything that had happened earlier vanished from my mind. 

All that existed was us.

Chapter Thirteen →

Thank you…

When I started Monroe + Aiden, I wasn’t sure where it would take me, only that I wanted to tell their story.

Finishing it feels a little surreal.

To those who followed along, read each chapter, or even stopped by for a moment, thank you. Truly.

This story means more to me than I can quite put into words.

And while Monroe + Aiden’s journey has come to an end… this is only the beginning here. 🤎

Love, The Feral Bookster


What’s Coming…

My writer brain isn’t finished just yet… there are other stories waiting to be told.

Stick around to watch Graham + Bambi’s story unfold.


Not yet subscribed?

Stay awhile! You won’t want to miss what’s next!

M+A Chapter 11

I retired to my sitting room for the evening and settled into the chair before the fireplace.

Alice returned a few moments later with a steaming cup of tea, handed it to me, and then tended the fire.

“Did you enjoy yourself today?” she asked. “I have yet to see Bedford Park, but I hear it’s wonderful.”

“Yes,” I said. “It’s lovely. You would like it very much.”

Alice smiled. “Well, I shall leave you to your evening. Good night, Monroe.”

“Goodnight, Alice.”

She gathered the tray and slipped quietly from the room.

The soft crackle of the fire filled the silence, and I was left alone with my thoughts.

I thought of the lawn trimmed to perfection. The gravel walkways raked smooth. Not a bloom out of place.

Alexander suited it. He was immaculate, composed. Every thread in order. He maintained himself as carefully as he maintained the park and his kingdom.

And yet my thoughts drifted. To moss-covered rocks. To wildflowers shifting in the breeze. To a quiet stream cutting through untouched earth. To Aiden standing there, unguarded.

A familiar warmth bloomed behind my ribs.

I caught myself imagining a life beyond duty and structure and composure. A life unmapped by others. And I was struck by how fiercely some hidden part of me wanted it.

I shook my head and set my teacup aside.

I was not meant to want such things. That was not the life I had been shaped for.

Duty first, I reminded myself.

I tried to rebuild the walls of expectation around me, but no matter how hard I tried, they felt too thin.

The room closed in. The air grew heavy in my lungs.

I needed air.

I pulled my robe from the back of the chair and shrugged it on.

I quietly turned the latch and stepped into the darkened hallway, the door whispering shut behind me.

The stone was cool against my bare feet as I moved silently down the corridors. Silver moonlight spilled through the narrow windows, lighting my way.

My footsteps barely echoed as I turned the first corner heading toward the balcony I knew lay ahead.

The double doors appeared just as a sound echoed behind me. My steps quickened instinctively.

I risked a glance behind me, catching the orange flicker of candlelight dancing along the wall just beyond the corner I’d come from.

Just as I turned back around, I collided with a solid wall of muscle.

I gasped and staggered backwards, but two strong hands caught my waist, steadying me.

“Princess?”

My eyes snapped upward, meeting bright green irises.

“Aiden?” I breathed.

Before I could fully register that Aiden’s hands were on my waist—and that my own fingers were clutching the strong lines of his arms—a sharp voice rang through the corridor.

Aiden’s head turned instantly toward the voice, his posture going rigid, his gaze sharpening.

Keeping one hand secured around my waist, he used the other to swing open the balcony door and drew me inside with him.

He quickly shut the door behind us and braced his back against the wall, holding me securely against his chest.

“Aiden…”

“Not yet, Princess,” he whispered. “Wait till they pass.”

I nodded and bit down on my bottom lip. Aiden’s gaze dipped there for just a second before snapping back to the door.

The orange candlelight grew brighter.

The footsteps grew louder.

They halted just outside the door.

Aiden’s grip tightened on my waist, his fingers bunching the fabric of my robe. My fingers dug into his skin in return.

For endless seconds we clung to one another, breaths held, eyes fixed on the door and the shadow behind them.

The latch jiggled the slightest fraction. I squeezed my eyes shut and hid my face in Aiden’s chest.

A muffled voice rose outside the door.

The footsteps retreated.

Aiden’s body relaxed against mine, his breath warm against the side of my cheek as he slowly exhaled.

I lifted my head and found Aiden’s gaze already on me.

My breath caught in my throat. 

Moonlight brushed across his skin, tracing the strong line of his jaw and the curve of his lips.

A cool breeze stirred the night air, but I barely felt it. Our bodies were pressed flush together, the heat of him seeping through the thin barrier of fabric and settling low in my core.

Each nerve in my body felt like a live wire, sparking at each point we touched.

He tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear. My skin tingled where his palm brushed my cheek.

His hand did not fall away. His palm remained at my cheek, cradling my face as though he could not bear to let me go.

And I did not want him to.

His gaze dipped to my lips once more, lingering there, before slowly returning to my eyes.

Our gazes held. 

His head dropped a fraction lower. His nose brushed mine, his breath ghosting across my mouth.

His mouth hovered above mine, so close I could almost feel the warmth of his lips.

My eyes fluttered shut, fingers curling into the fabric of his tunic.

I rose onto my toes, my chin tipping upward.

Aiden’s fingers pressed deeper into my waist.

Then, his forehead dropped to mine. 

“We can’t.” His voice was rough, as if the words themselves pained him. 

“I know,” I whispered, my own voice cracking.

Aiden’s jaw tightened. His grip loosened—reluctantly, almost painfully so—before his hands slid away from me.

I took a single step back, creating space that felt far too wide, far too cold. The loss of his warmth was jarring.

My arms fell back to my sides, fingers clutching my robe to keep them from trembling.

His gaze lingered on me—conflicted, aching with everything left unsaid—before he finally forced his eyes away.

He pushed off the wall, hands balled into fists, knuckles white.

“I should…” he started, then cut himself off. His voice was more strained than before. He cleared his throat. “We shouldn’t be here.”

I forced myself to nod, even though every part of me wanted to close the distance again. Wanted to pretend the world outside that door didn’t exist.

But it did.

I searched for the familiar steadiness, the polished calm I had been taught to wear like armor, but it was gone. I looked away and started for the door.

My fingers had just grazed the latch when movement flickered at the edges of my vision.

Aiden caught my wrist.

“Monroe…” his voice low and strained caught on my name.

I turned just enough to see the conflict on his face—the tight line of his jaw and the flare of his nostrils.

He drew in a sharp breath.

His fingers flexed instinctively against my skin, but he did not let go.

My pulse hammered beneath his fingertips.

“Don’t.”

His fingers tightened.

Then I was moving—pulled toward him.

His hands rose and cupped my face.

His mouth claimed mine.

For a single, breathless moment my mind went blank.

My lips softened beneath his. But before my body could fully follow, he broke the kiss.

My body swayed, dizzy.

My eyes fluttered open.

His breath came ragged in the narrow space between us.

“Aiden,” I breathed.

Realization flickered across his face.

His hands pulled away.

By the time the haze lifted, Aiden was at the door.

His hand closed around the latch. He paused and looked back at me.

Then the door opened, and he was gone.

Chapter Twelve

M+A Chapter 10

The curtains in my chambers were drawn back, and morning light flooded the room.

I sat up and stretched my arms over my head. “Morning, Alice,” I said through a yawn.

“Good morning, Monroe,” Alice answered, already sorting through gowns, muttering something about the prince and the picnic planned for the day.

I slipped off the bed and came to stand behind Alice. I rested my hands on her shoulders and gave a light squeeze. “You worry too much, dear Alice.”

“It is my job to worry,” she replied.

 “Well, if one of us must, I am grateful you do it so diligently,” I said, pressing a quick kiss to her cheek before moving toward the bathing chamber.

“You are in quite an agreeable mood, this morning,” she observed. “Excited for the picnic with the prince?”

I lifted a shoulder, but I could not suppress the faint curve of my lips. “Something like that,” I said.

After I bathed and dressed, I settled in the parlor.

Boot steps echoed in the corridor.

My pulse thrummed beneath my skin, my lips faintly curving into a smile.

I turned as the parlor doors opened.

Alexander stepped into view.

Disappointment flickered through my chest. My smile faltered, just barely, before I composed myself. The mask felt suddenly foreign.

 I rose from the settee and smoothed my hand down the front of my bodice.

“Good morning, Prince.”

“Princess Monroe,” Alexander said, “I’m glad you could join me.”

“As am I,” I said, but the words felt flat.

He held out his arm and led us to the waiting carriage.

“I know this outing comes later than intended,” Alexander said. “The past days have demanded more of me than I had anticipated.”

“I understand,” I said. “You have obligations to the crown that must be fulfilled. Duty comes first.”

Alexander smiled at that.

As he spoke of duty and obligations, I was struck with a sobering clarity. I, too, belonged first to duty. In recent weeks, I had allowed myself to forget that, had almost convinced myself otherwise.

The carriage stopped in front of a vast green expanse that stretched as far as I could see. Stone benches nestled under pink and white flowering trees, floral vines climbed up trellises and arbors, and at its center a sprawling hedge maze.

Alexander helped me from the carriage and offered me his arm. He guided us toward a towering magnolia tree. A white wrought iron picnic table and two chairs were tucked beneath its canopy of pale blossoms.

The table had already been set. Crisp linens laid neatly, covered dishes arranged with care, polished silver cutlery glinting in the sunlight—clear evidence of thoughtful preparation. Yet it felt less like a picnic and more like a carefully curated scene.

And I knew, without thinking, exactly how I should behave within it.

Alexander pulled out the chair for me. I smiled and inclined my head before taking my seat. A servant uncovered the dishes, revealing fresh bread and soft cheeses, cold meats, small tarts and pastries. I remarked how lovely everything looked. Another servant filled our glasses with wine. I thanked them.

I wore the mask as if it had never slipped at all.

“I’m glad the weather held for us,” Alexander said, lifting his glass. “The park rarely looks this inviting after the spring rains.”

“Yes, it’s beautiful,” I agreed. “I didn’t realize Bedford had anything like this.”

 “My grandfather created it,” he said. “He loved the outdoors nearly as much as he loved ruling. He believed a kingdom should offer people, and its rulers, space to breathe.”

I smiled faintly. “That sounds like a wise way to live.”

Alexander inclined his head. “Perhaps. I never quite inherited his fondness for lingering in places like this. But I understand the value of maintaining what he built.”

I understood what he meant, even respected it. Though I admired his sense of responsibility, a quiet part of me longed for the kind of life his grandfather had embraced—one that allowed room for stillness and wonder and finding joy alongside responsibility.

It was a quiet distinction, but one that felt larger than it should have.

As Alexander spoke, my eyes strayed beyond the flowering trees, catching a familiar glimpse of silver. Aiden stood watch, still and composed.

His eyes met mine.

My traitorous heart stuttered.

For a fraction, the practiced rhythm of the afternoon wavered.

I tore my gaze away and returned my attention to Alexander, schooling my expression into a relaxed smile.

We spoke easily after that—about the estate, the changing seasons, the pace of court life. The conversation was pleasant, thoughtful, and polite. Exactly what it ought to have been. And yet, beneath the civility, something remained just out of reach. A warmth I could not quite summon, no matter how I tried.

“Allow me to show you the maze,” Alexander said after the servants had cleared the table. “It was another of my grandfather’s creations.”

“Of course,” I said, rising from my seat.

The maze was formed of low, neatly trimmed hedges that curved and looped across the lawn, no higher than my waist, revealing the full shape of the winding paths. Sunlight danced across their glossy leaves and spilled across the open corridors.

We had just maneuvered through the first section when a faint buzzing brushed past my ear.

I halted abruptly on the gravel path. I sucked in a sharp breath, rooting myself to the spot.

My eyes tracked the bee as it cut jagged lines through the air, unable to look away. The bee zipped past my face and I flinched, biting down on my lip to hold back a shaky whimper.

Only then did Alexander turn. “Princess Monroe?”

His voice barely reached me over the blood rushing in my ears and the relentless, panicked beating of my heart.

A chill raced through my body as the bee zig-zagged closer, the buzz of its wings as loud as the chaos inside my head.

A small, breathless plea tumbled from my lips before I could stop it.

Alexander’s brows furrowed in confusion, his mouth parting as if to speak. Aiden stepped in his path before he could.

“Monroe.” His voice was barely a whisper, yet it was impossibly steady. Unshakable. It cut clean through the panic.

“It cannot hurt you,” he said, calm and steady. He stepped closer, gently wrapping both his hands around my forearms. 

“Look at me, Monroe.”  He lowered his face to meet my gaze. 

My eyes locked on to Aiden’s bright green irises. 

The maze dissolved. The noise, the buzzing, the world beyond him—gone.

There was only Aiden.

“Breathe,” he said.

His voice, his grip, were my anchors. I could do nothing but obey. 

I drew in a shaky breath.

“That’s good,” he murmured as I released it. “Again.”

Another breath. The panic loosened its grip.

Aiden nodded. “You’re doing well, Monroe. Take one more big breath for me.”

Aiden’s hands slid to my elbows as he gently guided me a step to the left. Over his shoulder, I caught the bee’s quick movement as it darted away.

A long breath left from me as the world slid back into place.

“Are you alright?” Aiden asked, voice low.

“Yes, I—” I swallowed thickly, acutely aware of how close Aiden still was.

The warmth of his hands seeped through my skin. Pine and leather filled my lungs. I caught the faintest hitch in his breath before he spoke. “Princess?”

Boots crunched over the gravel, the sound dragging me fully back to the present.

“Sir Aiden?” Alexander’s voice came more clearly.

Aiden did not move. His fingers tightened slightly against my arms, his gaze searching mine.

“I’m alright,” I breathed, dipping my head once.

Only then did he release me and step back.

Before Alexander reached me, I caught Aiden’s eyes for a fleeting second. I shaped the words silently. Thank you.

His expression softened before duty reclaimed him.

Alexander glanced between us, his brows drawing together faintly. “Are you quite alright, Princess?”

“I am,” I said. “I’m afraid I have never fared well with bees. I’m allergic.”

“Allergic?” His brows rose. “I’m sorry. I wasn’t aware.”

Aiden’s reaction was quick, nearly imperceptible, but I caught it all the same. His gaze flicked to Alexander, his jaw tightening.

“No need to apologize, Your Majesty. I don’t often like to make my vulnerabilities known.”

Alexander’s expression shifted, as though filing the information away. He nodded once.

“Well then, I believe we have had sufficient excitement for one afternoon,” Alexander said. “We should return.”

His arm settled lightly at my back as he guided us toward the carriage.

Aiden’s gaze rested between my shoulder blades.

And somehow, it comforted me more than the prince’s hand at my back.

Chapter Eleven


If you’re enjoying the story so far, sign up below to get the next chapter delivered right to your inbox!

M+A Chapter 8

My lips parted on a soft exhale, my body responding of its own accord, years of meticulous training to command myself proving insufficient.

We were standing too close to one another, yet it was not close enough. One step, and I could be in his arms. One step, and I would surrender to the pull that had been drawing me toward him since the day I arrived.

His hand lifted slightly, as though drawn by instinct rather than intention. He raised it toward my hand, his control slipping just enough to betray that whatever war raged inside me raged inside him as well.

I did not move away. 

His fingers brushed against my knuckles—light, tentative. 

My fingers shifted without thought, just enough to allow the contact. 

A shiver traced down my spine, goosebumps rising in its wake. 

His fingers lingered at my knuckles, sending sparks skittering across my skin, sharp enough to steal my breath.

His gaze held mine—questioning, searching, and I did not look away. 

He swallowed. Hard.

“Oh! There you two are!” Alice said brightly, her voice cutting clean through the spell.

In the span of a blink, Aiden slipped seamlessly back into the disciplined knight. We looked away from one another and took a subtle step back. My fingers flexed slightly at my sides, as if my body had not yet accepted that he was no longer touching me. 

Despite my quickening pulse, I managed to keep my voice even. “Sorry, Alice. I got a little carried away,” I said, gesturing to the pile of books on the table.

“I’m glad to see you enjoyed yourself,” she said, moving to inspect their titles. Her eyes flicked briefly toward me, as if she were gauging my mood, though she offered no comment. 

“I’ll let you ladies be,” Aiden said, inclining his head as he moved toward the door. His hand paused on the latch before turning it fully. As he stepped through the doorway, I caught his glance back. Our eyes met for a brief, charged moment, and I drew in a quick sharp breath before the door shut.

“Are you alright, Monroe?” Alice asked, her brows knitting together. 

“Yes,” I said, but my answer came too quick, too breathless. I cleared my throat before continuing. “Quite fine. I feel a little worn is all.” 

I moved to the plush settee behind the table and picked up one of the books, my fingers drifting absently over the pages. Alice came to sit beside me, lightly closing the book in my lap.

I met her gaze, and something in her eyes told me that she saw more than I was willing to admit.

“Oh, dearest Monroe,” she said, her tone soft and sincere. “I know these past few days have been hard on you but remember that even the smallest act born of a fleeting emotion can carry consequences you do not intend. Let your mind be your guide, not your heart.”

I stared at her, words failing me. What could I say? To speak at all would be to admit something I knew I could not—not even to Alice. 

She offered me a gentle smile, one that said she already knew. She squeezed my hand once and then left me alone with my thoughts. 

Foolish Monroe. 

I leaned my head against the back of the settee and closed my eyes. 

We could have stepped back. He could have withdrawn his hand. I could have pulled mine away. 

We did neither. 

I waited for guilt to come. For my stomach to clench and my chest to tighten. But it didn’t. And that, somehow, unsettled me more.

What frightened me the most was not that it had happened. It was that I was no longer certain I would stop it next time.

Alice’s warning had come too late.

Whatever had sparked on the road to Bedford had begun to grow into something steadier. Stronger. And I could no longer pretend I did not feel it.

M+A Chapter 4

The room felt smaller than before. 

I stood with my forehead pressed against the wood as if the chill might leach the heat from my thoughts. It did not. My pulse refused to settle, thrumming too loud in my ears. 

I straightened at last and crossed the chamber, shedding the careful composure I had worn all evening like a second skin. The candles flickered as I passed, their warm and steady light mockingly calm. 

This was foolishness, I told myself. A passing curiosity. Nothing more. 

As I unpinned my hair, I repeated the words, as if their mere repetition would make them true.

Loosening the stiff bodice of my gown, I took my first full breath, inhaling more freely since my arrival at Bedford. 

I closed my eyes, yet all I saw was him. Not his face, not fully, but the sense of him. The weight of his presence lingering behind me, measured and controlled, as if restraint were something he carried in his bones. 

I sank onto the edge of the bed and pressed my palms to my knees. It meant nothing. I was tired. Overstimulated. Far from home. Anyone would feel unsettled after such a day. Anyone might mistake vigilance for significance, discipline for depth.

And yet, my fingers curled into the fabric of my skirt as my mind betrayed me, replaying the sound of his voice—low, even, utterly composed. The way he had kept his distance, as though stepping closer would have been a transgression neither of us could afford.

I exhaled sharply and stood again.

This was dangerous ground. I knew it instinctively. These feelings, unnamed and unexamined, were indulgences I had never been allowed I had been raised for alliances, for duty, for sacrifice dressed as honor.

Tomorrow, I would wake and remember who I was meant to be. Princess Monroe of Bedford. Future queen. A woman with no room for foolishness.

I moved to the window and stared out into the darkened grounds, where torches burned low and the castle settled into an easy quiet. Somewhere beyond these walls, Aiden would be standing watch. 

And he certainly would not be thinking of me. At least, that is what I told myself.

I turned away at last and extinguished the candles one by one, leaving the room cloaked in shadow.

Still, long after I lay down, sleep would not come. No matter how firmly I closed my eyes, the space beside me felt anything but empty.

I opened my eyes to buttery light filtering through my bedroom window, its rays dancing along the floor. 

In those few, precious seconds between sleep and waking, it felt as though nothing had changed. I let myself savor them, relishing the stillness, the peace, the quiet of my own mind. 

As I bathed and dressed for breakfast, I moved with renewed confidence. The unease of my arrival had faded, and I was ready to settle into the rhythm of my new routine.

Alice escorted me to the dining hall, all the while issuing me a constant flurry of guidance and encouragement. “Remember, my lady…” she began once more. 

I stifled a chuckle and cast her a glance. “I’m quite surprised you have any advice left to give, dear Alice.”

“You joke, but one day you will thank me for it,” she smiled. 

Alice’s voice flowed beside me, soft and steady, punctuated by the occasional huff of breath as she straightened my sleeve or smoothed a wrinkle only she could see.

“Did you see the tapestries in the hall yesterday? The embroidery on the Bedford crest was exquisite—careful, don’t catch your hem.”

I smiled faintly at her words, the cadence and hum of her voice a comforting anchor as we moved through the castle.

Polished stone walls rose into high, vaulted ceilings, and the morning light streaming through long narrow windows painted streaks of gold across the floor. Knights passed at regular intervals, their boots echoing softly against the stone. 

I nodded absently as Alice continued, remarking about silverware and servants, horse stables and farms, manners and posture. She remained oblivious to my wandering gaze as she chattered on, her words blending into the steady rhythm of our steps. 

Alice’s steps slowed as we neared the tall dining hall doors. She paused outside them and adjusted my dress one last time. She smiled at me, leaning in to issue me a final piece of advice. “Mind your manners, and don’t forget to breathe.” 

I nodded, managing a small smile. 

She curtsied and stepped back.

Prince Alexander stood at the head of the long, narrow table, a pleasant smile already on his face. “Good morning, Princess Monroe,” he greeted. “I’m glad you could join me.”

“As am I, Your Majesty,” I replied. “Thank you for inviting me.”

He gestured to a seat. “Please,” he said, waiting until I had settled before taking his.

“I hope you slept well, Princess,” he said. “The first night in a new place can be unsettling.”

“I did, thank you.” 

He nodded courteously.

A brief silence followed—not awkward or uncomfortable, just still. “I hear the weather is beautiful this time of year,” I said.

“It is. You’ve come at just the right time, Princess. Spring suits Bedford. The mornings are mild, the evenings cool, and the gardens are soon to be full of bloom.”

“I’m looking forward to touring the gardens this afternoon,” I said. “I’m sure they’re lovely.”

“I’m certain you will,” Alexander replied, his smile faltered just slightly. “But I must apologize,” he continued. “An urgent matter has come up unexpectedly and I’m afraid I can no longer accompany you today.”

A small seed of disappointment took root, but I nodded, words of assurance and understanding already forming on my lips. “Of course, Your Majesty, I—”

The dining hall doors opened, and Sir Aiden stepped inside. The words caught in my throat. Just for a second. 

I swallowed and forced my eyes forward, focusing on Alexander’s face. “I understand,” I finished, fighting to keep my voice even. 

Alexander gave no indication that he had noticed my momentary falter. His gaze shifted to Aiden and his expression brightened, his blue eyes glinting as his smile widened.

“Perfect timing, Aiden,” Alexander said, rising from his seat. He stepped toward him then turned back to me, as if the solution had only just presented itself. “Since I cannot accompany Princess Monroe to the gardens today, you shall do so in my stead. I would not have her miss the opportunity.”

My stomach plummeted. It took every ounce of restraint to keep my face neutral.

I spared a quick glance at Aiden. Beyond the barest tick of his jaw, he remained a picture of control—unwavering, infuriatingly composed. 

“As you wish, Your Majesty,” Aiden answered, his tone as calm as his expression.

A bead of sweat slid down my spine as the realization sank in.

I was going to be alone. 

With Aiden. 

Chapter Five

M+A Chapter 3

For a single, immutable instant, time stilled around us.

Aiden’s green eyes met mine, something unreadable flickering there before his expression smoothed back into discipline.

“Let me introduce you,” Alexander said, his voice pulling me back to the present. 

I couldn’t argue, so I let him guide me towards Aiden.

He looked even more striking than before. His chestnut-colored hair fell just above his shoulders, half of it tied back, the rest loose and unruly. His green eyes seemed brighter now, reminding me of the rain-soaked hills in spring. He no longer wore his travel-worn armor but a formal uniform, the polished silver breastplate bearing Bedfords insignia, edged in gold. 

The sight of him stirred something inside me too dangerous to name. 

As we approached, he bowed, the warm candlelight glinting off his breastplate. “Your Majesty,” he addressed Alexander.

“I’d like you to meet Your Highness Princess Monroe,” Alexander said.

It was a miracle I remembered my manners, let alone how to speak. I smiled politely and curtsied. “Pleased to make your acquaintance, Sir Aiden.”

He bowed again. “Your Highness.”

Alexander turned and smiled. “Sir Aiden has served the crown with distinction. You are in capable hands, Princess.”

His hand fell to the small of my back as he said to Aiden, “I’m placing something of great value in your hands.”

“I understand, Your Majesty,” Aiden replied with a curt nod.

Alexander’s attention shifted toward oncoming courtiers, “It seems we’re being summoned.” Then quietly to Aiden, “Stay close,” and Aiden fell into silent step behind us. 

Conversation continued around us, but I found it hard to focus, too aware of the knight at my back. He said nothing, did nothing to draw attention, yet the space around me felt altered as if the air had shifted.

Without meaning to, I glanced over my shoulder. Aiden’s gaze was already on me. Not openly, not boldly, but it was there all the same. 

Heat rushed to my face, and I turned forward at once, my pulse stuttering. 

Foolish, Monroe.

As the event drew to a close, I was out of pleasantries, compliments, and small talk. My cheeks hurt from forced smiles, my feet throbbed, and my mind could no longer distinguish one noble from the next. Blessedly, our farewells were swift. 

“It has been an utmost honor, Princess Monroe,” Alexander said. “I have matters to attend to this evening, so I must turn you over to Sir Aiden’s care. I do look forward to our next meeting.”

With that, he brought our joined hands to his lips and pressed a polite, modest kiss to my knuckles. 

“The honor was mine, Your Majesty,” I replied.

Alexander smiled brightly, his blue eyes shining. “Sir Aiden will show you to your chamber. Good evening, Princess.”

I curtsied for a final time, and when I straightened, Aiden stood before me. 

His features remained impassive, neutral, betraying nothing more beyond strict discipline and obedience to his duty. “This way, Your Highness,” he said, his tone measured and reserved.

All the way through the great hall, through the castle, and into the winding corridors beyond, Aiden maintained a respectful distance—never more than two feet away. Yet I could feel his presence as something separate from him entirely. 

The walk to my chambers felt both too long and entirely too short. When Aiden came to a stop in front of the ornately carved door relief washed over me, followed by something I had no right to feel. Disappointment.

“Thank you, Sir Aiden,” I said.

“Rest well, Your Highness,” he replied. 

I lingered a moment longer, looking up at the man who had stirred something dangerous to life within me with nothing more than a few restrained words.

My mouth opened, then closed.

 Footsteps echoed down the corridor, drawing closer. 

Aiden’s jaw clenched. Then, without a word, he bowed and turned away.

I slipped into my chambers, closed the door, and pressed my forehead to the cool wood. 

Foolish, Monroe.

Chapter Four